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The question was obvious: How could a beautiful, talented young woman whose mission was to uplift others take her own life?

Karyn Leslie Washington was born and raised in Baltimore. The daughter of Rip, a disability support examiner at the Social Security Administration, and Gloria Yancey, who went by Jean, a social worker for Baltimore city, she was one of eight siblings, four full and four half. She grew up in a modest single-family house in Belair-Edison, a blue-collar neighborhood and one of the largest row house communities in the country. Coleman Washington, Karyn’s half-brother, describes it as “50-50.” “You’ve got the violence out there, but the neighborhood they’re in is really good.”

During her elementary years, she attended Greater Grace Christian Academy, an insular private school with approximately 200 students in grades K-12. There, she met Nieshia Watts, a childhood best friend who exudes warmth when we meet in a Baltimore coffee shop. “It was a majority white school, so as young minority girls we kind of found each other and we became best friends,” she explains.

“Karyn and I would talk a lot about boys,” she tells me. “There were a lot of white guys and not a lot of black guys. So, we felt like we were never good enough to get with white guys and we thought that there was a stigma for the black guys, like they wanted us to have this long hair.“

“I remember both of us being very unaware of what it was that was going on at the time, just understanding that we didn’t like it.”

Karyn eventually left Greater Grace to attend Western High, a mostly black, all-girls public school that educates more students per grade than the former’s entire population. She had a soft-spoken voice and was a “tiny little thing,” as her ninth-grade health teacher Brian King recalls; yet he still remembers all her “big picture ideas.”

“Study vocabulary? Ehhhhh. But if you wanted to have discussions … she always was up-to-date on current events and was aware of what was going on,” King says. “She always had this sense we weren’t doing enough.”

She enrolled at Morgan State, a historically black university in Baltimore, in fall 2010 to major in strategic communications, a combination of public relations and advertising.

Dr. OluwaTosin Adegbola is the chair of the strategic communications department. A Nigerian native, she cuts a striking figure: Incredibly tall — especially in the black wedge-heeled booties she wears when I meet her — she is thin and fashionable in a light-pink cardigan and fitted dress, with cheekbones that sit high on a face free of any makeup and skin the shade of supermodel Alek Wek.

Adegbola had never met Karyn before they were introduced via another student her freshman year, yet Karyn had admired the professor since she initially arrived on campus. “She said that she had read up about me and that she wanted to compliment me … on being a dark-skinned female who didn’t seem to be bothered by her skin complexion,” Adegbola says. She speaks with a British accent, her words measured and deliberate. “I didn’t see it as a compliment.”

The two had their first of what came to be “countless” long discussions that day, on which Karyn spoke of her idea to create an online movement for dark-skinned women. Adegbola, a feminist scholar, was initially skeptical of the plan. “I said, when you focus on celebrating someone because of this, the underlying question becomes ‘Was there something wrong with them to start with?’” Yet as the two continued their conversations, which eventually evolved into a close mentor-mentee relationship, she warmed to the idea. “If you happen to be a dark-skinned female in the United States of America, you look around and you don’t see too many representations of who you are on a daily basis, you ask questions,” she says.

“I think [Karyn had] enough observations and enough people talking to her about the stereotypes that they have gone through, [that she wanted] to create a healthy space for them not to see themselves as other,” she says.

“She’s black female power all the way.”

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Karyn created the For Brown Girls Tumblr in July 2011 and registered forbrowngirls.com as a domain that September. She hit her stride with the site the next year, posting constantly, interviewing young black female entrepreneurs, and sourcing other women’s reflections on their identity. She was contacted for a few interviews, the biggest with Madame Noire, in which she described FBG’s goal “for new generations of darker-skinned girls to not even have one thought of wishing to be lighter, to never doubt their beauty.”

In the summer, she began selling jelly bracelets tagged “For Brown Girls” and T-shirts with the words “I Love My Shade” emblazoned on them, despite a failed Kickstarter campaign for the project that made $586 of its $3,000 goal. In November, she attended Black Girls Rock!, an annual BET event that highlights accomplishments made by women of color, where she cried during India Arie’s performance and was inspired to do more to further her mission.

She seized an opportunity when rapper A$AP Rocky suggested black women shouldn’t wear red lipstick, and started the #DarkSkinRedLip Project, a social media campaign that amassed hundreds of supporters via photo submissions, and once again caught the attention of black media outlets. #DarkSkinRedLip, the official site for which has since expired, quickly became Karyn’s most successful and most publicized project.

“I think beauty shines most bright when you are positive, happy, and genuinely kind to others,” she said in an interview with CollegeLifestyles.org. “It shows through your heart and radiates in your smile.”

Karyn embodied a lifestyle that many didn’t know existed until this year: the Carefree Black Girl. Coined by an eponymous Tumblr launched in May 2013, the Carefree Black Girls movement came to the forefront this January as an expression of joy and celebration for black women, not in spite of their skin color, but because of it. Sites dedicated to Carefree Black Girls often depict black women in natural settings, basking in sunlight, being active, laughing, dancing. They can be 100 pounds or 300. Their skin can be albino or so dark that it seems tinged with blue. Examples include celebrities like Solange Knowles, Lupita Nyong’o, and Janelle Monae.

Karyn was not the first to carve out a niche online celebrating black women. Le Coil, a popular Tumblr created by photographer Jamala Johns in 2009, spotlights black women — and sometimes men — with natural hair, a colorful array of afros, braids, dreads, coils, and twists. Sites like Fuck Yeah Black Beauties and All Things Black Women have been curating diverse representations of black beauty since 2009 and 2010, respectively. Others have for years focused on black women in television and film or in fashion. And, of course, media organizations that cater to black female audiences have existed for decades.

Where Karyn was unique was in her creation of a grassroots effort to combat colorism specifically. For Karyn, who grew up in one of the country’s few majority-black metropolises, the issue wasn’t just representation — at a black university in a black city, she could at least see her reflection all around her — but that within her own group she was made to feel outcast. Often, she’d be told by black men, “Oh, you’re cute…for a dark-skinned girl.” Though awareness of colorism has increased recently via sites like Pretty. Period. and the documentary Dark Girls, For Brown Girls was early in its focus.

Fakaira Gabriel, a sophomore at Florida Atlantic University, is one of the few women I find who followed For Brown Girls from the beginning. She grew up in Haines City, Fla., a small city of about 20,000 that is a third black, and turned to Tumblr to boost her self-esteem around age 16. “I never really had a problem with my skin tone until I got to high school, and it was more of a ‘You’re pretty, but you would be pretty if you were of lighter skin,’ she tells me over Skype. She made a Tumblr and searched for tags such as “dark-skinned girls” as a way to avoid taking more drastic measures, like bleaching her skin. “I actually did kind of start bleaching,” she admits, “but I got over that phase quickly.” When she discovered FBG, she was floored. “Before then, there was nothing really for dark-skinned girls,” she says. “It was just very positive … It’s just a safe zone to get away and just feel good about yourself.”

By 2012, when For Brown Girls was taking off, Karyn’s mother Jean had been battling cervical cancer for four years. She had been diagnosed Karyn’s junior year of high school.

“Her mother was probably one of the only people she really was comfortable talking to, family-wise,” John Griffin tells me. A friend and old crush of Karyn’s from high school, he speaks at a near whisper on an upper floor of MSU’s library and looks like Will Smith in his Fresh Prince days, with flattop hair and a black-and-gray diamond-patterned sweater. “She never really talked about a lot of people in her family, but she loved her mother.”

Griffin is the first of many to explain that Karyn and Rip, her father, had a particularly difficult relationship. Though he declined to be interviewed, Rip admitted in a Facebook message that Karyn “hated” him because he disagreed with some of her “behavior.” “I know she told me in high school at one point her parents had taken the hinges off the door to her room,” Griffin says. “She didn’t have any privacy.”

Jean underwent chemotherapy and radiation and eventually went into remission. Karyn spoke with her every day, often calling from her shifts working at Radio Shack. However, the cancer returned, and things didn’t get better after that. On Aug. 30, 2013, Karyn’s first day of her senior year, Jean was told she was too weak for further treatment and was transferred to in-home hospice care. #DarkSkinRedLip had launched four months before.

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Karyn took a leave from MSU in order to stay at home, a time she would eventually describe on her personal site: “I stayed home with her looking after her but she wanted me to go to school, to keep busy and not worry. I wanted to say ‘ Of course I am mommy you are dying! And I don’t know what to do. I want to do something!’ But I let those screams stay inside of my head.” She took care of her mother at home until Sept. 22, when Jean had a seizure and was taken to the hospital. Karyn slept in her room each day until the morning of the 25th.

“When I woke up, I realized that I did not hear that same heavy breathing anymore. Pandora radio had stopped. There was silence. You weren’t breathing anymore. I walked over to you sobbing, kissing you. ‘Mommy.’”

Karyn, who was the main beneficiary of her mother’s will, moved into her own place last November. She also bought herself her first car, a black 2012 Toyota Yaris. Her friends considered it a fresh start. Mal Davis, one of Karyn’s closest friends, visited her not long after she had moved in. Karyn made shrimp and rice with french fries and they set up her new table and chairs in the dining room, which she had painted bright orange. She had become more reserved and less communicative, yet overall she had good days and bad days.

“It was a definite noticeable difference, but it wasn’t anything I didn’t feel like I could handle or anything that would have pushed me or anyone else away,” Davis says. “It was expected.”

The posts Karyn wrote on her personal site in early October — “dear mama,” “try sleeping with a broken heart,” “good morning,” and “try a little tenderness” — reveal glimpses into Karyn’s mental state. There were times she struggled to wake up or get herself a glass of water. Those posts coincided with her retreat from forbrowngirls.com, which she stopped updating at the end of October. However, she kept up with friends and even made a new one — her downstairs neighbor, PJ.

PJ, who requested I identify him by only his nickname, is startled when I first knock on his apartment door on Ramblewood Road. “I don’t like to talk about Karyn,” he says guardedly, in a rumpled white shirt and dark sweatpants. Yet after inviting me in to the apartment he shares with his roommate, he opens up. Like many, his descriptions of Karyn oscillate between past and present tense.

“She gives me the perspective of not only women, but women of color too. She was cool, man. She was just cool,” he says. “She made me understand that, hey, I’m gonna have daughters one day.”

PJ saw Karyn’s moods swing between “real extreme highs and real extreme lows.” She seemed particularly conflicted in reconciling her mother’s death with the newfound freedom it afforded her. “She always used to get emotional about that because she felt like she traded her mother for the money,” he says. “She always thought about that.”

Karyn returned to Morgan State for the spring 2014 semester and began attending classes again. She was “shut down,” Adegbola noticed. “I think the excuse someone like myself — and, to be fair, many people — might have applied is that everybody grieves differently,” she says.

One morning in February, PJ awoke to Karyn telling him she had taken her mother’s old pills. He waited as she threw up and gave her a bath, but knew they needed to go to the hospital; Karyn had started itching. She would later describe the incident to Griffin, who is an aspiring comedian on campus. “She was like, ‘One day you could take this and turn it into a joke,’” he says.

In late March, Karyn created new personal Facebook and Instagram accounts. She said she wanted to get back to blogging, to expand FBG, though by that point she hadn’t updated the social media accounts for over a month, and the site for over four. A couple weeks later, on April 6, she and Davis were to start a new routine of getting together weekly to work, but Davis had to cancel. “No problem!” Karyn said. Davis texted Karyn the next day, Sunday, but didn’t hear back. On Monday, she texted and called. Still, no response. One day without communication was fine; two was concerning. On Tuesday, April 8, Davis called and texted again. “Are you ducking me?!”

Karyn was found in her car with a plastic bag over her head — tubing running underneath — and a helium tank, at 5:38 p.m. on a residential road 10 miles north of Baltimore. Five minutes later, she was pronounced dead. The police didn’t find a note.

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Twitter:@thapelo_letsebe

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Pennsylvania Judge Sentenced For 28 Years For Selling Kids to the Prison System

Mark Ciavarella Jr, a 61-year old former judge in Pennsylvania, has been sentenced to nearly 30 years in prison for literally selling young juveniles for cash. He was convicted of accepting money in exchange for incarcerating thousands of adults and children into a prison facility owned by a developer who was paying him under the table. The kickbacks amounted to more than $1 million.

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First female black student-president at nation’s most expensive prep school is forced to resign after ‘offensive’ photographs of her mocking ‘typical white classmates’ emerge online
The former black student body president at a pricey New Jersey prep school was forced to resign from her leadership position earlier this year after she posted a series of photos on the Internet, in which she is seen dressed as what she describes to be the typical male, white student at the school.
In the photos, former Lawrenceville School Student Body President Maya Peterson is seen wearing L.L. Bean duck boots, a Yale University sweatshirt and is holding a hockey stick, which she says is representative of the typical ‘Lawrenceville boi.’
In addition to the photos, she added hashtags like ‘#romney2016,’ ‘#confederate,’ and ‘#peakedinhighschool.’
Peterson explains that the photos were meant as a joke in response to complaints made by students about her senior photos, in which she and 10 friends - all of whom were black - are seen raising their fists in a ‘Black Power’ salute. 
'I understand why I hurt people’s feelings, but I didn’t become president to make sure rich white guys had more representation on campus,' she told the website. 'Let’s be honest. They’re not the ones that feel uncomfortable here.'
Some of Peterson’s classmates, however, didn’t see the humor in her ‘racist’ photos.
'You’re the student body president, and you’re mocking and blatantly insulting a large group of the school’s male population,' one student commented on the photo.
Peterson’s response to the comment only made things worse.
'Yes, I am making a mockery of the right-wing, confederate-flag hanging, openly misogynistic Lawrentians,' Peterson responded. 'If that’s a large portion of the school’s male population, then I think the issue is not with my bringing attention to it in a lighthearted way, but rather why no one has brought attention to it before…'
Both students and faculty members felt the images were offensive, and that ‘it was not fitting of a student leader to make comments mocking members of the community,’ Dean of Students Nancy Thomas told the Lawrenceville student paper.
Peterson’s take on race has irritated her classmates in the past, as well.
In 2012, following the re-election of President Barack Obama, Peterson wrote on Facebook about how proud she was that an African-American was president - and threw in a sarcastic jab at white people.
'As a black and Latino, gay woman in the United States of America, today is a momentous day,' she wrote. 'I’m sorry to all the rich white men who have failed to elect a president that endorses their greed.'
Some of her classmates felt the Facebook post was racist.
'I’m gonna have to assume from your political beliefs and what you’ve said that you do not pay for your Lawrenceville tuition in its entirety,' one student wrote. 'But do you know who pays for that? Yeah, that would be all those greedy white men who actually worked for their fortune, not relied on the government to support them. Just saying.'
Peterson’s family paid full tuition at the school.
Peterson’s getting elected student body president worried many of her classmates, as they believed she was alienating a large portion of the student body with her controversial comments about white classmates
One former student said Peterson’s photos - and overall attitude, ‘violated the spirit of the Lawrenceville community.’
'It was hateful. It wasn’t inclusive,' the student, identified only as David, said. 'When I think of Maya Peterson, I don’t think of someone who is an avid proponent of progress or of inclusiveness. I think of someone who is hateful. She had a hateful spirit.
Source
Lord look at this madness
I SUPPORT MAYA PETERSON!!!!

Letter from Alexis Wilkinson to Maya Peterson
"Your offended constituents, however, do not want to be cut deep—or cut at all. They do not want to be reminded of their context, your context. They want their “uber-diverse” President—but hold the controversy, hold the humor directed at their expense, and, please, eighty-six any real critique of the racist system that created this situation in the first place. Instead of lavishing praise on them for being “open-minded” enough to elect you, you showed them a reflection of themselves, and they were repulsed. How fitting that an Instagram was the tipping point because there is nothing more disturbing than holding up a mirror and not liking or recognizing the image that you see.
It is a harsh reality that the people who ushered you in are often the same ones who will revile you the moment you toe the line, the second you fail to reward them with enough politically correct Scooby Snax, the instant you remind them that racism and sexism and homophobia aren’t over just because you’re in charge.
To me, it is that power dynamic that made your Instagram post comical and harmless. And it is that power dynamic that allowed you to be stripped of your position for it. Because, as much as you are “in charge,” it is the people you mocked who have the capacity to remove that power, not the other way around.
So, from one black person who occasionally makes fun of white people to another, the system is rigged and I am sorry. I only hope that you do not let the persistent mechanisms of disenfranchisement make you ashamed, or fearful, or any less confident in your ability to make real change. In the words of Jesse Jackson, “Keep hope alive.” In the words of Mark Twain, “In the first place, God made idiots. That was for practice. Then he made School Boards.” In the words of Lily Tomlin, “I always wanted to be somebody, but now I realize I should have been more specific.”
- Alexis Wilkinson, First black woman president of The Harvard Lampoon

postracialcomments:

First female black student-president at nation’s most expensive prep school is forced to resign after ‘offensive’ photographs of her mocking ‘typical white classmates’ emerge online

The former black student body president at a pricey New Jersey prep school was forced to resign from her leadership position earlier this year after she posted a series of photos on the Internet, in which she is seen dressed as what she describes to be the typical male, white student at the school.

In the photos, former Lawrenceville School Student Body President Maya Peterson is seen wearing L.L. Bean duck boots, a Yale University sweatshirt and is holding a hockey stick, which she says is representative of the typical ‘Lawrenceville boi.’

In addition to the photos, she added hashtags like ‘#romney2016,’ ‘#confederate,’ and ‘#peakedinhighschool.’


Peterson explains that the photos were meant as a joke in response to complaints made by students about her senior photos, in which she and 10 friends - all of whom were black - are seen raising their fists in a ‘Black Power’ salute. 

'I understand why I hurt people’s feelings, but I didn’t become president to make sure rich white guys had more representation on campus,' she told the website. 'Let’s be honest. They’re not the ones that feel uncomfortable here.'

Some of Peterson’s classmates, however, didn’t see the humor in her ‘racist’ photos.

'You’re the student body president, and you’re mocking and blatantly insulting a large group of the school’s male population,' one student commented on the photo.

Peterson’s response to the comment only made things worse.

'Yes, I am making a mockery of the right-wing, confederate-flag hanging, openly misogynistic Lawrentians,' Peterson responded. 'If that’s a large portion of the school’s male population, then I think the issue is not with my bringing attention to it in a lighthearted way, but rather why no one has brought attention to it before…'

Both students and faculty members felt the images were offensive, and that ‘it was not fitting of a student leader to make comments mocking members of the community,’ Dean of Students Nancy Thomas told the Lawrenceville student paper.

Peterson’s take on race has irritated her classmates in the past, as well.

In 2012, following the re-election of President Barack Obama, Peterson wrote on Facebook about how proud she was that an African-American was president - and threw in a sarcastic jab at white people.

'As a black and Latino, gay woman in the United States of America, today is a momentous day,' she wrote. 'I’m sorry to all the rich white men who have failed to elect a president that endorses their greed.'

Some of her classmates felt the Facebook post was racist.

'I’m gonna have to assume from your political beliefs and what you’ve said that you do not pay for your Lawrenceville tuition in its entirety,' one student wrote. 'But do you know who pays for that? Yeah, that would be all those greedy white men who actually worked for their fortune, not relied on the government to support them. Just saying.'

Peterson’s family paid full tuition at the school.

Peterson’s getting elected student body president worried many of her classmates, as they believed she was alienating a large portion of the student body with her controversial comments about white classmates

One former student said Peterson’s photos - and overall attitude, ‘violated the spirit of the Lawrenceville community.’

'It was hateful. It wasn’t inclusive,' the student, identified only as David, said. 'When I think of Maya Peterson, I don’t think of someone who is an avid proponent of progress or of inclusiveness. I think of someone who is hateful. She had a hateful spirit.



Source

Lord look at this madness

I SUPPORT MAYA PETERSON!!!!

Letter from Alexis Wilkinson to Maya Peterson

"Your offended constituents, however, do not want to be cut deep—or cut at all. They do not want to be reminded of their context, your context. They want their “uber-diverse” President—but hold the controversy, hold the humor directed at their expense, and, please, eighty-six any real critique of the racist system that created this situation in the first place. Instead of lavishing praise on them for being “open-minded” enough to elect you, you showed them a reflection of themselves, and they were repulsed. How fitting that an Instagram was the tipping point because there is nothing more disturbing than holding up a mirror and not liking or recognizing the image that you see.

It is a harsh reality that the people who ushered you in are often the same ones who will revile you the moment you toe the line, the second you fail to reward them with enough politically correct Scooby Snax, the instant you remind them that racism and sexism and homophobia aren’t over just because you’re in charge.

To me, it is that power dynamic that made your Instagram post comical and harmless. And it is that power dynamic that allowed you to be stripped of your position for it. Because, as much as you are “in charge,” it is the people you mocked who have the capacity to remove that power, not the other way around.

So, from one black person who occasionally makes fun of white people to another, the system is rigged and I am sorry. I only hope that you do not let the persistent mechanisms of disenfranchisement make you ashamed, or fearful, or any less confident in your ability to make real change. In the words of Jesse Jackson, “Keep hope alive.” In the words of Mark Twain, “In the first place, God made idiots. That was for practice. Then he made School Boards.” In the words of Lily Tomlin, “I always wanted to be somebody, but now I realize I should have been more specific.”

- Alexis Wilkinson, First black woman president of The Harvard Lampoon

The dominant media is itself a tool of white supremacy: it repeats what the police deliver nearly verbatim and uncritically, even when the police story changes upwards of nine times, as it has thus far in the Brown killing. The media use phrases like “officer-involved shooting” and will switch to passive voice when a black man is shot by a white vigilante or a police officer (“shots were fired”). Journalists claim that “you have to hear both sides” in order to privilege the obfuscating reports of the state over the clear voices and testimony of an entire community, members of which witnessed the police murder a teenager in cold blood. The media are more respectful to white serial killers and mass murderers than to unarmed black victims of murder.

In Defense of Looting (via azspot)

We’ve seen plenty of evidence of this last week. 

(via invisiblelad)

Nothing makes white people more uncomfortable than black anger. But nothing is more threatening to black people on a systemic level than white anger. It won’t show up in mass killings. It will show up in overpolicing, mass incarceration, the gutting of the social safety net, and the occasional dead black kid.